His voice is shaky and his eyes fill with tears. "I don't want to go to school. I don't ever want to go to school again!" I take a deep breath and buy some time as I take another bite of my bagel and a sip of my coffee. My throat tightens and I blink away tears. The first week of kindergarten has broken my heart and left me feeling unsure and unsettled.

I remember what my husband said to my son. "Do we run away from things that are hard, or do we face them?" 

What if she doesn’t find new friends? What if this is not the sport for him? How will she ever pass this test? When will he find the time for that project? 

As mothers, it’s easy to worry over our children. The initial thought creeps in as a concern and then before long, a small parenting care has grown into a full-blown fretting fit.

Cast all your anxiety on him, for he cares for you. I Peter 5:6-8 NIV

 

Am I Enough? Overcoming Feelings of Unworthiness as a Mom

Do you ever feel as if you aren't enough? Do you struggle with feelings of unworthiness? I have for most of my life. I crave perfection, but I look in the mirror, around the house, and in my roles as wife and mom and I see all the shortcomings:

  • “Not disciplined enough,” my reflection tells me.
  • “Not clean or organized enough,” my house screams.
  • “Not loving or respectful enough,” I read in my husband's eyes.
  • “Not fun enough, joyful enough, or compassionate enough,” my child's actions or cries tell me.

If I was more—if I did more or gave more—then my life would be easier. That was the lie I believed, but I always, ALWAYS fell short.

Sometimes life is not quite what we make plans for it to be.

Sometimes we do all that we can, and put what we feel is our very last ounce of effort and energy into making our life look a certain way, and then quite shockingly...the rug is pulled out from beneath us, and life has other plans.