I don’t know what to do, Lord.
More than once, more than a hundred times… these words on my lips.
And still they come. As I parent. As bills pile up. As I divide time between worthy priorities. As life decisions I thought I already made keep coming back.
It’s the same for us all, isn't it? With the grey mist hanging over tomorrow and us working so hard to see through it.
We ask God for answers. For a plan.
We’re so sure the next step of life could finally settle things: Marriage. Children. A steady income. Restored health. Following our passion. An empty nest and tidy house.
But we eventually catch on, don’t we?
Life is full of surprises. Change. Wrenches.
Some grow bitter when they realize the future will always be up in the air. Because it truly is.
Even those who seem so stable and secure, whose tomorrows are nicely ordered aren’t invulnerable to life in a broken world.
The bitter miss out on real life. They shrivel, while others grow.
But those who surrender control, who unclench their jaw, let their shoulders fall, and open their palms to Jesus gain peace and courage.
"Those who wait for the Lord gain new strength." (Isaiah 40:31)
Their questions aren’t answered. There is no memo detailing tomorrow’s plan.
But their eyes are opened a little further.
They see things they couldn’t see yesterday… how the Word breathes life.
How "faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see." (Hebrews 11:1)
How trials develop perseverance, and perseverance character, and character hope. (Romans 5:3-4)
They see that hope does not disappoint. (Romans 5:5)
And before long, they’re too busy fixing their eyes on Him to keep peering into tomorrow’s mist. Jesus was there yesterday and today; and they know He’s already in tomorrow.
They falter, of course. Sometimes they wring their hands. Sometimes they forget, and they sink in the waves.
But sometimes too, they catch a glimpse of how far He’s brought them. And the challenge ahead doesn’t fill them with the same dread they used to feel.
In fact, their hearts quicken a little.
They wonder, How is He going to do it this time?
Because they know He specializes in the impossible. Sometimes through miracles, sometimes through grace.
You know He can change you and me into “them,” don’t you?
It feels risky. As if we’re letting go of the wheel.
But He’s always had it.
Let’s fix our eyes.
For He knows the way we take. (Job 23:10a)