Hopes crushed not for the second or even third time but for the fifth time, I cried out to the nurse, “I don’t get it! Why does this keep happening?!”
All blood vials, needle pokes, doctor visits, weigh-ins and vital signs indicated that this time - at twenty weeks along - I should be seeing a beautifully strong heartbeat from my sweet child. Instead, I sullenly and sorrowfully stared at my perfectly healthy baby whose heart had stopped beating for no apparent reason.
Why God? Why does this keep happening? WHY??
Read the rest of Looking Beyond the Pain at For the Family where I am posting today.