Our hearts are restless until they find their rest in You. – St. Augustine
Even as a small child, I can remember feeling “restless”. I would sit in my room and cry, knowing there had to be more to life than what I saw and what I knew. My life was full of loving family and friends, but still I felt “empty”. As I got older I tried to be a good person and make good choices. Of course I failed a lot, which brought about guilt. I wasn’t sure why I felt guilty, I just knew I felt a lot better when I was “being good”. As I entered high school, nothing I did made me feel complete peace so I kept searching. That is when my friend Amanda invited me to hang out with her youth group. I loved to have fun and I was always up for anything so of course I went. I will remember that night for the rest of my life. I saw in these people what I had been searching for. There was a light, a hope, a peace and an overwhelming joy. A few days later I went to church with her and saw that same light and peace. God was stirring in my heart and that Sunday morning in May of 1993 I found the hope and peace I had been restless for. I committed my life to the Lord, and asked Jesus to forgive me and to direct my future path.
Now here I am 18 years later!! Wow!! Let me say I am far from perfect. I still try to be good and I still mess up. I still have faced many trials. But I have a hope and a peace, and I have spent the last 18 years thanking God for the rest He has given this restless heart!
No matter what you have done, who you are, or what you have been through God can forgive, God can heal, and God can restore. Don’t spend your life chasing after what only God can give. Come to Him. Find your rest in Him.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28